Day 24- Dark Gifts


Anyone that has known me for any small length of time, knows good and well that I have ‘issues’.

I deal with anxiety; social and otherwise, hypochondria and procrastination…these are only the tip of the iceberg.

How did I get this way? Who knows! Was it Nature? Nurture? My Mother? Yes, yes and yes.

I am introverted by nature and my childhood reinforced it to the degree that as an adult, breaking out of this mold I was cast into is very near impossible.

For the most part, I have learned to live with these shadowed aspects of myself and maybe even learn a thing or two from them as well.

For instance- my social anxiety makes me really enjoy the comforts of my home, but when I am out in a group setting, I people watch and learn a great deal about others. There is oh, so much to learn from watching and listening to others.

My hypochondria has made me a kick ass researcher and has increased my medical vocabulary like nobody’s business.

And my quiet/introverted nature makes me, well…quiet. I do not go overboard with theatrics, (unless a health crisis abounds, of course).

Contrary to popular belief- I do have quite a good number of healthy days.

This post was going to be about courage and my desire to be brave, (something I am not), but just like my life, it took a turn I did not foresee.

So I think I think I will use my quiet side to sit with this a bit and appreciate the gifts that come even in the midst of adversity. Our shadowed sides offer up benefits too, if we look deep enough for them.

What gifts do you bring to the table?